I know I haven’t blogged much lately, but I have been very busy with V, he is having a hard time right now. Lots of health stuff going on.
D sent me the link to this video, it brought me to tears. This man has the right sentiment on gay marriage. Watch it, and for those of you who keep pushing us down, who won’t let us marry, think again. How can some of you call yourself “Christians” when you judge us for who we love, who we sleep with, who we want to marry. We only want the *same* rights as you, no more, no less. What is so wrong with that? Why do you worry so much about what we are doing in our homes, in our bedrooms? Do you think we sit around and wonder what you heterosexuals are doing? No, we don’t. We live our lives just like you do, we love just like you do and we want the same things you have. Stop judging and remember that God is love, and remember – “Just not, lest ye be judged.”
It has been awhile, hasn’t it? I have been uber busy! My husband and son flew here from Italy for Christmas, it was nice seeing them again, we had a wonderful time! I’ve been busy taking care of V as well. He is in more and more pain and it breaks my heart in pieces. I wish there was some way I could take the pain away, but I know I can’t. I just try to make him smile, I rub his hurty spots and just give him all the love and support I can. He is facing spine surgery and of course I am worried about that. He is in bad health and I just don’t know how this surgery will go, he is a slow healer and I am certain it will be painful for him. Ultimately I hope it relieves a bit of his back pain, we shall see. Regardless of the outcome, D and I will be here to take care of him and love him. People have been donating to V through his donate button and it lights up his life when it happens. It shows him that people *do* care about him. Thank you to everyone who has helped him so far!!! He sure does deserve it.
Happy New Year to everyone, I truly hope all your dreams come true this year. Time to go spend some more time with V before he has to go for his CT-Scan this afternoon. Have a great day!
P.S.
I was just reading Jonathan’s blog and was appalled by this entry READ IT HERE. How very sad and outraged I feel. When will the world realize that we homosexuals are *not* a threat to any of you. For the love of God, stop the violence.
LOL V got his tree in by UPS this morning. He was mid-dialysis so I had to answer the door. The UPS driver was quite hot today, but I digress LOLOL. I could see the excitement in V’s eyes when he saw the tree had finally arrived, because this is no ordinary tree, no, it is V’s *goth* tree LOLOL. Yes my dear readers, we will be making V happy this year by having a very merry *goth* Christmas. The tree is black, we will be adding black and silver ornaments to make it look wonderful for him. V is, well, the epitome of *Goth*. He was goth when we met at age 8, he is still today, I don’t think he would know what to do if he didn’t live this way LOL. He is vampiric as well (that is so hot to me LOL), he has sexy fangs, he has the long black hair and the height (6 ft. 8in.) to go with it, tall, skinny and gorgeous! He has always dressed the part too. I love seeing him in his long leather trench coats, the bulky boots, leather jeans. Oh my word is it getting hot in here or is it just me? LOLOL He has those long long black eyelashes, the pretty violet eyes, I could go on for hours about just how beautiful he is but I will shush (for now LOL). My whole point of this blog was to say I want V to be as happy as possible, we never know when a holiday may be his last and I intend to make sure he gets what he wants to make every one the best for him!
I suppose soon we will pull out the tree and put it up, start decorating it. I still have to find the perfect silver tree topper to go on it. I will check possibly tomorrow or Friday and see what I can find. I am sure V will take a picture of it and put it on his blog. So everyone be sure to check it out when he does, comment and make him happy!
He had to rest after dialysis, so we are going to the store shortly, he is getting dressed and I just thought I would ramble on for a few minutes. He is still insisting on making his home made goodies for Christmas, sending them out to a few special people. I will attempt to help him, but he will probably just run me out of *his* kitchen. LOL
I am just so upset today, and so worried. V is in so much pain these days, this dialysis is getting to him. I don’t know what I can do to make things better. I know he thinks about *checking out* more times than I want to know. I just read his blog and I wanted to write my thoughts here before commenting to him.
He does need pain management. I wish to God I could afford to send him, but I can’t. I already pay for his Gleevec, that is around $10,700.00 a month (yes *ten thousand* a month), I pay for his home hemodialysis at roughly $1,500.00 per week. I pay for his supplies, other medications, etc. I also have to pay for my own medications for Multiple Sclerosis (I have Secondary-Progressive MS). If you do not know what MS is let me explain–MS means literally *Many Scars*, my immune system attacks my central nervous system leaving scars. I liken it to having pot holes along your nervous system. I deal with fatigue, impaired vision at times, tingling sensations and pain. I have poor muscle control sometimes, I have problems with balance and I stutter sometimes. I pay $2.000.00 for a 0.03mg vial of my Interferon beta-1b, I take steroids, Zanaflex ($350.00) for muscle spasms, Symmetrel ($110.00) to reduce fatigue and Valium($350.00) for my nerves. You do the math.
Now you see why I cannot afford to send V to pain management. Oh God, if I could I would. It pains me to see him like this and I get irked at people who give money to charities, to research and things like that. What about the patients? What about people living with cancer, MS, or any other chronic disease? Does anyone think about them? What about helping our fellow man? I wish more people would. I wish more people would look at how hard V fights to live and *help* him for fuck sakes. I can’t do anymore than I am already.
V, I love you more than words. I feel so bad that I can’t help you more. I wish I could take all of your pain away. I would take it into my own body if I could so you would never have to suffer again.
Isn't it funny that heterosexuals make love whereas us gays have sex? Gay sex. People don't say "oh look, that couple are having straight sex!" I'm gay and when I have sex it will be simply put, sex. Sex for me always has to be an expression of love, of respect, of showing affection to someone I love. Why can't those who bash us […]
I LOVED this video, and I am so glad you put it on your blog-- (you beat me too it haha). I love how he states he is NOT gay, and doesn't know anyone who is gay. He just believes, like we do, in equal rights for all. Not more rights, just equal rights! WHO CARES what any of us do in our bedrooms? Who we love, who we marry. It seems people are far too no […]
my favorite part is right at the top where he clearly states, 'I am not gay. I don't even know of anyone in my family that is gay, nor I am friends with anyone gay...' I love this because he's making a point that is rarely made by someone uninvolved with it personally. He is finally speaking as someone who is just seeing it for what it is […]
The following statement was issued by Judy Shepard, the president of the Matthew Shepard Foundation, on the murder of 19-year-old Jorge Steven López Mercado.
